According to available demographics there are 85 folks over 80 years living in Taos Town. Doesn’t seem like many or perhaps its a lot I wouldn’t know. Does this include the folks at The Living Center, Taos Retirement Village etc? I do know Taos is a retirement community in general which suggests the need for services Taos is not prepared to offer such as medical care. I’ve been searching for a primary care physician and none are accepting new patients. The first appointment possibility is 5 months in the future.

I really can’t wait that long. I’ve been diagnosed with COPD without any tests; no MRI, ultra-sound or CT scan – just the blood-oxygen finger test that said 85. It had been 85 for years and I was able to hike and function normally. Then all of a sudden I had an accident that moved me to the oxygenator and I’m tied to the tubes for life. I need to find out the condition of my lungs. The main symptom is dizziness and fainting along with 24/7 need for air.

I created this condition by smoking for over 40 years. Although stopped smoking in 2000, it caught up with me and now I must confront this hideous condition within the death trade as found in palliative care and Medicare. It’s an experience you really don’t want unless unconscious with no hope of recovery.

Ah yes, at last – great news to share with the terminally ill: This is the Options Coalition that is in process of being updated with all the info one needs to qualify for the meds necessary to end life that has become intolerably painful and unmanageable. It will keep critically ill patients from putting a gun to the head or driving off into an abyss.

Today I have an appointment that hopefully will lead to an ultra sound and determine what is going on. But no. Been to appointment and no help. Seems the ultra sound and MRI are not going to reveal anything about lungs. There are no primary physicians available in Taos so I await a phone consult with my nurse practitioner on Monday.

Guess I’ll be hanging out on the bed with my little angels – Bunny and Rosie. They love to cuddle and snooze with me. I’m so horribly ill I’ll try the nebulizer and hope for the best although Jenkenson says hope is the agitator of the terminally ill.

Who Knows?

This used to be until I ignored the site for several years and somehow a foreign entity seems to have liked the name and is now charging $$ for various versions. So changed the name to living past 80.

Been looking around for facts about over 80 folks and of course it’s more difficult to find than over 78 studies when that was my pursuit. From time to time one runs across those who feel the elderly are thriving: living longer, better health care and lovely retirement facilities where everybody gets together for badminton, pool time and martinis. Sounds like fun but my deep concern is with the poor elderly, in bad health with no resources.

I am not a scholarly authority on this subject – I’m just living my 82 years, day to day, with what sometimes appears to be insurmountable, orbiting, unpredictable realities. So often there are no words to capture the out of control experiences that are outrageous and yet reveal so little because I don’t have a real diagnosis of my illness.

Fortunately there is a great master in our midst: Steven Jenkinson, certainly one of the most knowledgeable authorities on death and dying and all aspects of the death trade and palliative care. I implore you to watch the documentary Griefwalker on YouTube for free. He has written numerous books on various aspects of the subject. His latest Die Wise is very powerful.

It’s interesting and a little unsettling that many folks don’t want to discuss any aspect of death and dying. While most authorities on the subject say one must invite death to walk with you side by side every step of the way. And of course there are various preparations – psychological, medical, legal etc – one can consider through the years. And as the Dali Lama says – we are born to die.

Unfortunately, I never gave a thought to growing old until my 70s when the grim reaper blocked my path with his raucous tune: Good day to you; we’ve never met. But here I am with your regrets.We”re partners now until the end, laughing and dancing, favorite friends.

Castaneda writes of the definitive journey one must take at the end of life. He called this journey the trip into the active side of infinity. Every elder is guaranteed to find outstanding inspiration within the context of Castaneda’s books. He can change your life.

Create A Death Box


If you are over 75 and live alone with no living family you might want to create a Death Box to make everything run smoothly according to your wishes after death. Things can become a little complicated without clear directives. It should be very helpful for dear friends to have easily accessible NECESSARY forms and other instructions and messages. This is particularly true if you’re alone at the time of death.

I created a Death Box containing separate envelopes filled with various forms and relevant lists and messages regarding my dogs and basically whatever comes to mind in this arena. Currently the envelopes are addressed as follows:
Last Will
Health Care Directive: Do Not Resuscitate
Regarding Dogs
Funeral Home Info
Power of Attorney
List of Personal Effects
Taos Property Info
Cancel Insurance Policies
Envelopes addressed to closest friends

All of these items are contained in a shoe box appropriately labeled and decorated as seen in above photo. Close friends know of the box and its location.

Regarding end of life preparations I’m impressed by the work of interfaith minister Susan Varon who conducts the local Death Cafe meetings in Taos. The next meeting is March 1, 2:00 at Golden Willow, 412 Sipapu Street (at the Golden Willow facing Sipapu not Salazar). Be there at least 10 minutes early because the doors close promptly at 2:00.

Email Susan at and put your name on her mailing list to be notified of future Death Cafe meetings AND to receive the super-helpful information she sends out such as “A Check List for Dealing with End of Life Issues” and “How to Take Control of the End of Your Life” by Katy Butler. Katy’s book “The Art of Dying Well” is available at the Taos Library and I look forward to reading it.

Cell Phones as Scary Brain Fryers

It’s a hideous development in the consciousness of humanity – with the scariest aspect of the smart phone/wireless phenomenon being our movement into the shadow world – which is a scientific fact: electrons are shredded from our cells (oxidation) by electromagnetic radiation – diminishing our personal light(aura), creating disease and anti-social behaviors.

Looking for electromagnetic frequencies circling my universe, I was fortunate to have a friend with an Accoustimeter which he used to determine electromagnetic frequencies in my house. It was an alarming experience for one trying to avoid the deadly emf for many years. (see Microwave Grid at, written in 2010)

The Accoustimeter is quite impressive as you will learn by googling the device. It’s expensive but can be rented for 3+ days. It’s extremely user friendly with a detailed visual display and outstanding audio effects.

Strange sounds emanated from the device – a kind of background squabble indicating the ambient frequency. Strange for a home that had no cell phone and the wireless turned off. When the wireless was turned on the indicators turned red and moved into the danger level where connective tissue is affected. I was indeed shocked. I turned off the wireless and the meter returned to a more normal range.

At which point my friend demonstrated his Apple Smart Phone via the Accoustimeter. The indicators turned a throbbing red and went into the top register indicating extreme physical danger. The sounds made were truly scary: super loud squawking in various rhythmic configurations.

Years ago I had a dect phone; it was very convenient. The data on that device was shocking and I got rid of it after extensive research. Recently close friends finally got rid of their dect phone after learning it was probably responsible for crippling physical problems.

Pet lovers should note that a recent 7 hour, online seminar on Pet Cancer warns emf can be a powerful adversary to healing and maintaining good health. It seems obvious this would be true.

Dangers of cell-phone technologies has been known for decades yet folks can’t get the message. For example: ran into a friend in grocery store walking around with her smart phone turned on and resting next to her hip. I asked why it was turned on and she said she lived alone and needed the phone when in the stable at night, in case she has an accident. I replied “But you aren’t in the stable now.”

It was a surprising experience since she had read the current The Nation cover article: How Big Wireless Made Us Think That Cell Phones are Safe: A Special Investigation by Mark Hertgaard and Mark Dowie which includes the following quote.
“The scientific evidence that cell phones and wireless technologies in general can cause cancer and genetic damage is not definitive, but it is abundant and has been increasing over time. Contrary to the impression that most news coverage has given the public, 90 percent of the 200 existing studies included in the National Institutes of Health’s PubMed database on the oxidative effects of wireless radiation—its tendency to cause cells to shed electrons, which can lead to cancer and other diseases—have found a significant impact, according to a survey of the scientific literature conducted by Henry Lai. Seventy-two percent of neurological studies and 64 percent of DNA studies have also found effects.”

And now we learn more details of future plans for 5G across America. According to The Nation: “Because 5G radiation can only travel short distances, antennas roughly the size of a pizza box will have to be installed approximately every 250 feet to ensure connectivity. “Industry is going to need hundreds of thousands, maybe millions, of new antenna sites in the United States alone,” said Moskowitz, the UC Berkeley researcher. “So people will be bathed in a smog of radiation 24/7.”

You might wish to review: Cell Phones, Microwaves and the Human Health Threat found at